How It Happens

I am invisible

When I walk into

A room

I have to be

Loud, intrusive

If you are

Talking to another

Then you

Are not

Talking to

Me

So I interrupt

You

Because you

Don’t

See

Me.

I am hungry

For attention

I don’t get

And never did

The growl of

My need

Spews out

My mouth

Knocks people

Down

Screams over

Others.

I am empty

Nothing

Fills or

Satisfies me

Not

Food or

Sports or

School or

Smiles or

Empty conversation.

I am no one

I will turn

To

God

Or

Gangs

Or

Guns

Or

Gutters

To

Learn

To

Be

And

To

Be

Seen.

I will join a

Church

Temple

Mosque

Jihad

War

Fight

Rape

Kill

Condemnation.

I will feel

Better

Blessed

Chosen

Crowned

Brother

Sister

Soldier

Martyr.

I will die

Killing

Maiming

Shaming

Many,

Many

Others

Too

Blind

To

See

Me

Before.

I will be

Famous

Omnipresent

Bogeyman

Monster

Under

Your

Bed

Every

Night

And

Day.

I will leave my

Mark

Scar

Piss

Shit

Desecration

Abomination

Everywhere

And

For

All

Time.

I was once invisible

You did not

See me

Hear me

Want me

Hold me

Touch me

Feed me
Watch me

Know me

Guide me.

But now

You will

Never

Forget

Me

Because

I Am

And

Always

Will Be 

Blasphemy